* and maybe someday you'll find what you're looking for
a mix by s.polaris
lots of remixes abound. lyrics shown are not the full song-- hard to believe for some of the longer snippets, isn't it? but they're actually only the portions that i feel all fit together nicely (not the only parts i like, however) as a whole. (like puzzle pieces from the clay, to quote the postal service) trivia: tracks 1, 2, and 4 are all sung/written/produced by the amazing erlend Øye ♥ (track 5 is also his mix!); thus i had to throw in cocorosie to break the constant flow of erlend a bit. tracks 8, 13, and 17 also are all sung by imogen heap ♥tracklist 1. sudden rush (the twelves remix) - erlend Øye 2. winning a battle, losing the war (remix) - minizza 3. promise - cocorosie 4. golden cage - the whitest boy alive 5. if i ever feel better - phoenix 6. we get on - kate nash 7. disintegration - jimmy eat world 8. breathe in - frou frou 9. maps - yeah yeah yeahs 10. werewolf - cocorosie 11. i can tell - saosin 12. hello - red roc 13. the walk - imogen heap 14. love on the rocks - sara bareilles 15. blind - placebo 16. tokyo - nell 17. hear me out - frou frou 18. the good left undone - rise against 1. sudden rush (the twelves remix) - erlend Øye a sudden rush of expectation as I realize it's you... initial hint of disappointment the mirror of my smile that isn't there, that doesn't follow a very casual "hi"... why did you come at all if it wasn't for me? why did you come at all? the whole way we first met comes together in my head when the picture's clear you've left 2. winning a battle, losing the war (remix) - minizza even though I'll never need her, even though she's only giving me pain, I'll be on my knees to feed her, spend a day to make her smile again even though I'll never need her, even though she's only giving me pain as the world is soft around her, leaving me with nothing to disdain even though I'm not her minder, even though she doesn't want me around, I am on my feet to find her, to make sure that she is safe and sound. even though I'm not her minder, even though she doesn't want me around, I am on my feet to find her, to make sure that she is safe from harm... 3. promise - cocorosie and the heart is dumb and the heart is blind... and I pray you’ll cherish this tarnished offering promise me you'll cherish this tarnished oh, this tarnished offering... 4. golden cage - the whitest boy alive so you no longer care if there's another day I guess I have been there, I guess I am there now you knew what you wanted and you fought so hard... so of course I miss you and miss you bad but I also felt this way when I was still with you yes of course I miss you and miss you bad but I also felt this way when I was still with you 5. if i ever feel better - phoenix they say love ain't nothing but a sore I don't even know what love is too many tears have had to fall don't you know I'm so tired of it all there's a part of my world that's fading away... now I know that a breeze can blow me away now I know there's much more dignity in defeat than in the brightest victory I'm losing my balance on the tight rope tell me please, tell me please, tell me please... hang on to the good days I can lean on my friends they help me going through hard times but I'm feeding the enemy I'm in league with the foe blame me for what's happening I can't try, I can't try, I can't try... I've tried and lost know I think that I pay the cost now I've watched all my castles fall they were made of dust, after all someday all this mess will make me laugh I can't wait, I can't wait, I can't wait... if I ever feel better remind me to spend some good time with you you can give me your number when it's all over I'll let you know 6. we get on - kate nash ...and when I saw you kissing that girl my heart, it shattered and my eyes, they watered and when I tried to speak I stu-uttered and my friends were like "Whatever, you'll find someone better, his eyes are way too close together and we never even liked him from the start... he ain't worth your time cause you deserve a real nice guy" so I proceeded to get drunk and to cry and I locked myself in the toilets for the entire night Saturday night, I watch Channel 5 I particularly like CSI I don't ever dream about you and me, I don't ever make up stuff about us that would be classed as insanity I don't ever drive by your house to see if you're in I don't even have an opinion on that tramp that you are still seeing I don't know your timetable, I don't know your face off by heart but I must admit that there is a part that still thinks that we might get on that we could get on that we should get on 7. disintegration - jimmy eat world hushed with a finger don’t say you’ll never when you might, or just another time... wonder why I’m so caught off guard when we kiss i'd rather live my life in regret than do this what happened to the love we both knew? we both chased. try to lie better next time, stay on my side tonight oh hanging on a cigarette you need me you burn me you’ll burn me 8. breathe in - frou frou I read you and God I'm good at it I'm so spot on... what part of no don't you understand I've told you before to just get off my case this isn't happening stop this now and where was I? I have to be somewhere now where did I put it? is this it is this it is this it? and I'm high enough from all the waiting to ride a wave on your inhaling and I'm high enough from all the waiting to ride a wave on your inhaling 'cause I love you no? can't help but love, you know... 9. maps - yeah yeah yeahs pack up. I'm a stray. enough. oh say say say you'll say say say you'll say say say you'll say say say you'll say say say made off. don't stray well my kind's your kind I'll stay the same. pack up. but don't stray. oh say say say I'll say say say Wait. They don't love you like I love you. Wait. They don't love you like I love you Maps. Wait. They don't love you like I love you. 10. werewolf - cocorosie ...I don't mean to close the door but for the record my heart is sore you blew through me like bullet holes left stains on my sheets and stains on my soul you left me broke down begging for change had to catch a ride with a man who’s deranged he had your hands and my father’s face... i has dreams that brings me sadness rain much deeper than a river, sorrow flow through me tiny waves of shivers corny movies make me reminisce they break me down easy on this generic love shit first kiss, frog and princess i'ma shake you off though get up on that horse and ride into the sunset look back with no remorse 11. i can tell - saosin and I'm falling home where is my home? ...I once believed I would set you in line ...I once believed "if only I'd been thinking at all" if only I had the strength you’d be completely accepting something else if you keep asking me I'll melt away in the summer air it won’t hurt half as much and I'll beg for you to please stop it now if you keep asking me I'll melt away in the summer air it won’t hurt half as much and I'll beg for you to just tell me something you swore out like my life you cried so I'm engaged to smile 12. hello - red roc hello, hello, hello... 13. the walk - imogen heap inside out, upside-down twisting beside myself, stop that now, 'cause you and I were never meant to be... alright then (alright then) I could keep your number for a rainy day that's where this ends, no mistakes no misbehaving, oh, I was doing so well, can we just be friends?... inside out, upside-down twisting beside myself, stop that now; you're as close as it gets without touching me, oh no, don't make it harder than it already is... it's not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all, I don't want to feel like this no it's not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all, I don't want to feel like this, so that makes it all your fault big trouble, losing control, primary resistance at a critical low, on the double gotta get a hold, point of no return one second to go no response on any level, red alert this vessel's under siege, total overload, systems down, they've got control, there's no way out, we are surrounded, give in, give in and relish every minute of it... it's not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all, I don't want to feel like this, Yeah, no it's not meant to be like this, it's just what I don't need, why make me feel like this, it's definitely all your fault feel like this It's all your fault (feel like this) It's all your fault (feel like this) It's all your fault (feel like this) It's all your fault 14. love on the rocks - sara bareilles ...I needed a raise I worked so hard for this love of mine still I got nothing to show for it Here's a simplification of everything I'm going through. You. Plus me. is bad news. ...my friends say I look better without you... you love the chase but hate me for the runaround we both just tired of the whole thing. you tell me what you want you need you know you have to have and I just pretend I’m listening... hot as hell cold as ice sip it slow cause it's so nice dulls my senses drives my pain and still I do it again burns a bit to the touch dangerous if it’s too much if this bottle could talk... Love on the rocks... 15. blind - placebo if I could tear you from the ceiling, and guarantee a source divine, rid you of possessions fleeting, remain your funny valentine. if I could tear you from the ceiling, I know the best have tried, I'd fill your every breath with meaning, and find a place we both could hide. you don't believe me, but you do this every time, please don't drive me blind. please don't drive me blind. I know we're broken... if I could tear you from the ceiling, I'd freeze us both in time, find a brand new way of seeing, your eyes forever glued to mine. don't go and leave me, and please don't drive me blind, don't go and leave me, and please don't drive me blind. don't go and leave me, and please don't drive me blind, don't go and leave me, and please don't drive me blind. (I know I broke it, I know I broke it, I know I broke it, I know I broke it...) 16. tokyo - nell the love we make the tears we cry sometimes they’re just not real the heart we break the wounds we make sometimes they just don’t heal... the things we say the things we hear sometimes they’re just not real the things we touch the things we feel sometimes they're just not real i think i’m losing weight again i think i’m losing taste again i think i broke my heart again will you stay with me i think i lost my love again maybe i sold my heart again i think i’m left with none but pain will you stay with me will you stay, will you stay, will you stay will you stay the love we make the tears we cry sometimes they’re just not real sometimes they’re just not real... 17. hear me out - frou frou I join the queue on your answer phone and all I am is holding breath just pick up I know you're there can't you hear? I'm not myself well, go ahead and lie to me you could say anything, small talk will be just fine your voice is everything we owe it to love and it all depends on you... so how do I do normal? a smile I fake the "per-ma-nent-way" cue-cards and fix-it kits can't you tell? I'm not myself... I'm a slow motion accident lost in coffee rings and fingerprints I don't wanna feel anything but I do and it all comes back to you hear me out, listen up this time you gotta listen to me look at me straight, just hear me out don't make me wait, I'm not myself I can't take this, love's on the line Is that your final answer? So listen up. This sun hasn't set. (I refuse to believe that it's only me feeling) Just hear me out I'm not over you yet (it's love on the line, can you handle it?) 18. the good left undone - rise against In fields where nothing grew but weeds I found a flower at my feet, bending there in my direction. I wrapped a hand around its stem and pulled until the roots gave in, finding there what I've been missing. And I know... So I tell myself, I tell myself, it's wrong. There's a point we pass from which we can't return. I felt the cold rain of the coming storm... Not a day goes by when I don't feel this burn. There's a point we pass from which we can't return. I felt the cold rain of the coming storm... All because of you, I haven't slept in so long. When I do I dream of drowning in the ocean. Longing for the shore, where I can lay my head down... All because of you. All because of you. All because of you I believe in angels. Not the kind with wings, no, not the kind with halos; the kind that bring you home when home becomes a strange place...