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mail: northyrn @gmail
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twitter: iuris
music: ♪
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images taken in oakland, california,
by self. self-portraits taken in
benicia, california, by self.

portals:
* subaru-kun.org
elven-girl.com
more links?

© copyright XX05-09.

start: chair of contents

i. introduction: it's ridiculous
ii. soundtrack: the tunes
iii. something or other: crazy person
iv. more nonsense: lessthanthree lists
v. medleys of melodies: musical mixes
vi. tributes and tchotchke: to love
vii. somewhere else, better: next destination

i. where have I come to?

I already have sites, or semblances of sites, that display what little artistic or creative skills or lack thereof I seem to think I possess. this one which once showcased meaningless self-portraits and quaint little pseudo-charming autobio-profiles has certainly lost its meaning. I'm still, unfortunately, desperately trying to find it, but I don't know where to look. it would be a very unclean lie for me to say that I do not tend to sound pretentious, or that I am noteworthy enough to even warrant a page of nonsense info like this.

but since I figure I might as well use this space for something... well, here it is. scattered with completely pointless information about things I just happen to sporadically feel like writing inane diatribes about. enjoy. (though if you do, may I sincerely call you a bit weird?)

(I am currently desperately battling urges to squeeze every single bit onto one page. I'm sure that'll just make this one long, scrolling, endless madness..) all I can say is: oops?

(I can't promise I'll update all the time, though...)

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ii. now playing...

what are these songs doing here and why are they invading your eardrums!?-- must definitely be your current inquiry, I'm sure. and I'm only too happy to answer that, here and now! how exciting.

isn't it?!

anyway, what do these three songs have in common, you ask? well they were the songs I was listening to when I designed this good-for-nothing piece of junk, of course! the music that played during the inspiration and recreation of this silly madness.

this track is from the second wolf's rain soundtrack. I love Gabriela Robin's voice and her music as well, regardless of the fact that I only have (as of this writing) two songs of hers. but those two are two of my favorites! her raspy and ethereal voice and the casual beats in the background give this song a playful feel. and then there's the question (what question? well.. it was rhetorical anyway..) of the meaning. death to rebirth, everything in life (and death) has its cycle. maintaining balance in the universe and all that great stuff. it reminds me personally of the cycle of my hair. once I grow it out to a moderate length I always want to cut it and have short hair, but once I have short hair again, I want to grow it out longer again. it never ends, the cycle.

I love this kind of music, which is certainly hard to describe and even more difficult to classify or force into the box of a genre. it's the perfect music for inspiration of any sort though, I think.

another beautiful voice I adore. Ilaria Graziano is an amazing singer and I love the background music. in a way all three of these songs are related through their somewhat odd or at last unique instrumentalization. I also like the lyrics. (I'm often a lyrics type of person when it comes to music..)

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iii. who exactly is behind this ridiculosity?!

people tend to call me by a whole wide (and rather ridiculous range) of words, "sway" being the most common; polaris, suizilla, shuideshui, xiaowei, fei, suifen, byul/byeol, nanashi, McSui/MC SWAY, suinee/suijie, reverie, lady sky, suy, soy, &c. also comprise some of the rest of the bunch. but fortunately you are not just mere "people"-- thus if you wish to call me anything, call me friend.

I haven't written one of these things in a very long time (as I detest using first person outside of journals) and am afraid I barely remember how, eheh. well, since this is a poor excuse for a personal site, I better relearn quickly, huh..

well I guess I'll start with some of the more hackneyed and inane "basics" as per perfunctory..ness.

born in Shanghai, China at 9:06 in the morning in the year 19XX on the day 7x in the xth month of the year, where x = the square root of (3)(5)+1. 0XX years of age, and around one hundred and sixty-five centimeters in height. off the top of her head: likes water and the sky, rainbows, black and white, red, orange, all other colors, and varying shades of blue, most notably sky and ocean.

currently attending University of California, San Diego as a major in Literatures of the World (English and another) and minors in Public Service and tentatively something else. past and present jobs have included freelance web/graphics designer, office assistant, translator/waitress (personal favorite, even if it almost made less than volunteering, as it was in China), cashier, salesperson, and drink maker.

possesses many a proclivity for music. art, books, words, language, reading, writing. photography. breathing, learning, living. singing dancing walking running. (and a predilection for) being sesquepedalian and autodidactic. creating words. emit quaint sporadic sound. awkward. solitary. cherish true beauty. stories. bittersweet. poignancy. creativity & compassion. individuals with intelligence. clever diction. discourse. laughter, life, love, epiphany. tears.

is very much a kid desperately clawing at the world to let her grow up. has faith in God is love is life. spirituality and faith over religion, doctrine, and creed. loves learning languages. chronic insomniac.

is quaint, gauche, ridiculous, and probably best described as sui generis (the former title of this monstrosity).

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iv. lists of all sorts of things

loved, liked preferred, of the moment, all-time favorites, mild interest, take your pick. always under construction, everchanging (new favorites are added frequently).

looking for lists concerning music? there's another section over here!

click each header to view the lists (some are ridiculously long).

I. poetry, plays, & prose

II. anime, manga, & video games

III. films & television

IV. miscellaneous

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v. maybe a mix of music will do the trick

what makes music so special that it warrants not just one but two sections on this page?

good question. unfortunately, I don't have the answer quite yet. (I'm a fan of asking in the rhetoric.)

i do know that I can't live without it and whether it's creating (piano/guitar/violin/bass) or listening, I probably will always love it, and it will always be the nourishment for my poor often-famished soul.

so here be music! tracklistings of mega mixtapes, current songs of the moment for me (mind, a "moment" of music can last maybe an hour and then my mood for music will change), just miscellaneous lists of music associated with certain times, just about anything. for most current up-to-the-minute information on what I'm listening to, check out my last.fm charts.

click the dates to see the moods, as this single page is getting long enough and I don't want to overexert its limits. (i'll probably have the info start popping up in a separate window eventually if it gets too out of hand) the word "mood" is very loosely defined here; it's basically just a particular moment in which I am listening to specific music. also, I tend to recycle certain songs in mixes, so there may be a few repeats.

moods:

mixtapes:
      + gifts   * secret
2oo8.o6.19. continuation of the freshmen year 2004 mix below. everything ends where it began (a sequel). *
2oo8.o6.17. inspired by the nostalgic. way back when: flashbacks to being a freshman. *
2oo8.o6.11. (things left undone) +
2oo8.o6.1o. you'll find the last piece one day; jigsaw puzzles. + (five-part mix: find, trust, &then betrayal, aftermath, redemption)
2oo8.o6.o8. disapparating voices fading smouldering cigarette wrists.
2oo8.o5.o8. and maybe someday: let's drive to the beach when the hand moves midnight. (part o1+five parts+bonus)
2oo8.o5.o7. and maybe someday you'll find what you're looking for. (part o1)

miscellany:
some favorite mixes compiled by others:
      most recent first
oX. hustler
oX. champloo*ism's character image EPs
oX. this isn't you (girl, what have you done to yourself)
oX. the orphaned anything's soundtrack
oX. sweet catastrophe

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vi. love you like water

this whole portion of the site is now moving/has moved to NABSEGDA-VASHI.com! yay! go there! and something will replace this section.. someday.

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vii. nicer travel hotspots to visit

o1. amazing sites by amazing people

oX. nami.subaru-kun.org: nami's breathtaking art (currently unavailable)
oX. hysteria.subaru-kun.org: ngoc's personal site
oX. beyond-sanity.org: nara's personal domain
oX. pyreflies.nu: nara's fandom domain
oX. sui.livejournal.com/friends: livejournal friends

o2. other places of mine to go and see

oX. subaru-kun.org: collective and root
oX. elven-girl.com: original collective, est. 2oo2
oX. x.nabsegda-vashi.com: journal, est. 2oo4
oX. zine.subaru-kun.org: S.O.A.P., modest attempt at artzine
oX. nabsegda-vashi.com: love, laughter, and life
oX. iheartyogurt.wordpress.com: I HEART YOGURT, food+froyo log
oX. last.fm/user/shuideshui: last.fm, current music charts
oX. sui.livejournal.com: livejournal, rarely/never updated, always lurking
oX. flickr.com/photos/northyrn: flickr, infrequently updated
oX. 43things.com/person/suizilla: 43 things to do
oX. xanga.com/mind_anesthetic: xanga, rarely updated
oX. berryyogurt.deviantart.com: deviantart, never updated

o3. places where I love to lurk or just plain love

oX. somethingfishy.org: help and support for all EDs
oX. big-big-truck.org/champloo: champloo*ism, a wonderful SamCham site
oX. community.livejournal.com/sortofbeautiful: the sole reason I tolerated bad fiction

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